graduation lately i've been thinking a lot about my life. where i see myself in the next 5 years and where i see myself now. graduating high school has given me so many things to think about. you realize that after that huge step, its time to make grown up decisions that will effect you for the rest of your life. while the thought is frightening, i find it overwhelming and relieving. i've been waiting for the day where i could be independent and be on my own for as long as i can remember. now, it is all a fantasy. because in the real world: LIFE IS HARD. trying to live on change from your wallet can be stressful. and lately i've been thinking back on the things in my life that i need to focus more on and the things i treasure more than the money i work so hard to earn.
family i don't think i'll ever be so appreciative of my family. my mom and dad have given so much to me, and it hurts me to know how much of that i took for granted during my teenage years. i don't think i'd be able to function if i didn't have the family that i have. my parents influence so many of my decisions and their strong words of encouragement push me day to day and i have more comfort of what is to come in the future because of my parents love and support.
career the last two months of high school i realized how much i needed to make a decision on my career and what i wanted to do in college and for the rest of my life. i was inconsistent and indecisive and couldn't make up my mind. i was going through dance major to dance education to early childhood education and being a teacher. after so much thought and consideration i have finally decided that i am going into early childhood education and going to UVU to get my one year certificate so that i can be a preschool teacher. i am stoked about my decision and can't wait to start school and go forward with my future in teaching.
love there are a lot of things i could say about the word LOVE it means all kinds of things. but i've been thinking a lot about what it really means. i won't deny that i'm excited to someday get married to the man of my dreams. i know there is a difference between being excited and being ready. my sister got married when she was 18 and so did my mom and my grandma. i always knew that it was impossible for me to be married so young. i've always said that i am too "immature". now i've realized something. its not that i'm immature, i'm just not yet ready. which is fine. marriage is a huge step in life and i'm only 18! i have so much time to live! but i am excited for that part of my life and i know that it will be good for me.
as for now...
right now i'm working at a small snow shack on main street. while working there, i'm also looking for a second job so i can make money to go to school. so for now, i'm going to enjoy a relaxed and carefree summer of work :) and i'm going to make the most of what i have. i'm excited for what is ahead and i'm ready to put all the bad behind me. i feel like starting out fresh and i'm ready for college life and move out into my own apartment.
"Reflect upon your present blessings - of which every man has many - no on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some."
:Charles Dickens:
love, erin
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Saturday, April 3, 2010
.Mixed Feelings.
have you ever fell for someone.. and fell HARD? but has that person you've fallen so hard for not even noticed..? and not to mention he has someone else? its confusing. i'm starting to feel all these crazy feelings that i've never felt before about someone i know. and .. i am starting to see things in a different way. i'm not so sure what to really do about it. i'm trying to figure it out, and i'm trying to figure out who i am cause i'm at the point in my life where i don't know. and things are changing, high school is coming to an end. i feel like i really need to take the time for myself to figure out who i really am. i always thought i knew, but lately i'm not so sure. i'm just at the point in my life where i am really starting my life and future and i'm doing my best with facing that reality. i just wish i knew what to do with all these new feelings.. because he's all i can think about. i just wish i knew what will come out of it all. but i know that i need to be patient and have a little faith and no matter what things will turn out for the best. things will turn out the way they are supposed to be, but i can always have a little bit of hope he will be a part of it (:
i can honestly say i'm happy to be alive (:
i love my family, & i love my best friends seren and lexie. they really help me through everything. without them all i'd be so lost. and.. i love my baby girl! my niece alexa gets cuter everyday!
life is just .. beautiful.
love, erin
i can honestly say i'm happy to be alive (:
i love my family, & i love my best friends seren and lexie. they really help me through everything. without them all i'd be so lost. and.. i love my baby girl! my niece alexa gets cuter everyday!
life is just .. beautiful.
love, erin
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Alexa Mae Haws
She's finally here! I'm officially an aunt! She is so beautiful! 7 pounds, 10 ounces.. 18 1/2 inches. She is the most beautiful baby! I'm so glad that she's here, and that she made it okay!
I am so blessed to have this sweet spirit enter my life, and my family is so excited that she's joining us! Its still so crazy that my sister had a baby.
Alicia is my older sister, and she was always someone i looked up to, since the time i could stand up and waddle around after her. Follow her every step. Watch her go through her hardest times, and grow up.. and now she is a mommy. MY sissy, leesha. is a mommy(:
i'm so happy for her, i will love this little girl forever.
love, erin
Monday, January 4, 2010
:A New Year:
2010 is going to be a great year. Graduation. College. Life is starting and i can't wait! 2009 was a pretty good year though. Here's a Year-in-Review..
January:
Fun times with amazing family and good friends.
February:
Drill Team Competitions.Scruff Happened. (:
March:
Oldest sibling and only big sister gets married and moves out. Maid of Honor at Wedding. (:
April:
Turned 17. Got asked to prom by a pirate. Drill Team Showcase. Spring Break at my house in Moab. Auditioned for a captain on Drill Team. Went to Prom with Joey Haws (not the pirate). Got a position as a Drill Team Captain.
May:
Sister gets pregnant. Going to be an aunt.
June:
Went boating with Brinley. Got a 2nd degree sunburn on both of my thighs. Unable to walk for 2 weeks. Hung out with Hill and Stu, and ran over a dog. Recovered from horrible sunburn, got back to dance. Drill Team Camp at Precision.
July:
Met the Jonas Brothers<3 Stadium of Fire.Best Day of My Life. Went to Seven Peaks with Brinley, Kelsie, Jenoa, Logan Schneider and Parker Farnsworth. Had so much fun.
August:
Threw Brinley her suprise 16th birthday party. It was a blast. Drill Team practice throughout summer. Senior Year Starts.
September:
Didn't get asked to Homecoming, but I had a fun time with my new best friend Meghan who i met this month. Homecoming Night Assembly Performance, super fun. Homecoming Drill Alumni Barbeque, then Game.
October:
Performed at my last football halftime. Worked busy on Mr. Cavemen all month. Mr. Cavemen: Kung Fu Cavemen. Was so much fun. I was so happy Matt made it.
November:
My family got the swine flu. Saw New Moon with Mom, Dad, Alicia, Skylar and Joey. Saw Wizard of Oz. It was a great show and Ethan and Emma loved it so much. Went shopping with my Mom at 4 in the morning. It was MADNESS. James died this month. He shall not be missed.
December:
Dance and Drill consumed my life this month. Practice at 6 every morning and stayed after school until 6 everyday for 2 weeks. Dance Concert was a blast. First competition. We took 5th place in our Kick routine out of 9 schools. It was the best thing ever to take an actual award home. It has never happened. We are working our way up for sure. Mom had some medical problems on Christmas Eve, but we pulled through it. Christmas Break and Christmas were amazing. UVU dance on New Years Eve was a blast.
This year really was a good one and I am so grateful to everyone in my life, no matter who it is or what they've done for me, i love them all. I'm so thankful to have all these great memories.
I know 2010 will be just as great. It is going to be a year of big big changes. Turning 18, Graduating and starting College. It is going to be a good year and I can't wait to see what will happen. Thank you to everyone who has and will always stand by my side. I love you. Happy New Year!
love, erin
January:
Fun times with amazing family and good friends.
February:
Drill Team Competitions.Scruff Happened. (:
March:
Oldest sibling and only big sister gets married and moves out. Maid of Honor at Wedding. (:
April:
Turned 17. Got asked to prom by a pirate. Drill Team Showcase. Spring Break at my house in Moab. Auditioned for a captain on Drill Team. Went to Prom with Joey Haws (not the pirate). Got a position as a Drill Team Captain.
May:
Sister gets pregnant. Going to be an aunt.
June:
Went boating with Brinley. Got a 2nd degree sunburn on both of my thighs. Unable to walk for 2 weeks. Hung out with Hill and Stu, and ran over a dog. Recovered from horrible sunburn, got back to dance. Drill Team Camp at Precision.
July:
Met the Jonas Brothers<3 Stadium of Fire.Best Day of My Life. Went to Seven Peaks with Brinley, Kelsie, Jenoa, Logan Schneider and Parker Farnsworth. Had so much fun.
August:
Threw Brinley her suprise 16th birthday party. It was a blast. Drill Team practice throughout summer. Senior Year Starts.
September:
Didn't get asked to Homecoming, but I had a fun time with my new best friend Meghan who i met this month. Homecoming Night Assembly Performance, super fun. Homecoming Drill Alumni Barbeque, then Game.
October:
Performed at my last football halftime. Worked busy on Mr. Cavemen all month. Mr. Cavemen: Kung Fu Cavemen. Was so much fun. I was so happy Matt made it.
November:
My family got the swine flu. Saw New Moon with Mom, Dad, Alicia, Skylar and Joey. Saw Wizard of Oz. It was a great show and Ethan and Emma loved it so much. Went shopping with my Mom at 4 in the morning. It was MADNESS. James died this month. He shall not be missed.
December:
Dance and Drill consumed my life this month. Practice at 6 every morning and stayed after school until 6 everyday for 2 weeks. Dance Concert was a blast. First competition. We took 5th place in our Kick routine out of 9 schools. It was the best thing ever to take an actual award home. It has never happened. We are working our way up for sure. Mom had some medical problems on Christmas Eve, but we pulled through it. Christmas Break and Christmas were amazing. UVU dance on New Years Eve was a blast.
This year really was a good one and I am so grateful to everyone in my life, no matter who it is or what they've done for me, i love them all. I'm so thankful to have all these great memories.
I know 2010 will be just as great. It is going to be a year of big big changes. Turning 18, Graduating and starting College. It is going to be a good year and I can't wait to see what will happen. Thank you to everyone who has and will always stand by my side. I love you. Happy New Year!
love, erin
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Christmas!
Christmas this year was definitely more different than it has ever been before!
Our usual tradition is that on Christmas Eve, we stay home all day and play games as a family, watch movies.. and all that jazz. Then we get to open a big family present which always consists of pajamas with the occasional slipper. After that we have a candlelight dinner and my mom cooks amazing-ness. Then we stay up all night playing more games and watching more and more movies. I love Christmas time with my family.
But this year.. it was different. Christmas Eve started out the way it normally does. We played games, and watched movies.. But then my mom wasn't feeling too well and decided she felt sick. Well, what was sick turned into even worse sick, and my dad had to run my mom to the emergency room around 3:30 pm leaving me, alicia, sky, jake, dylan, and the twins at home. We weren't sure what was going on, but before they left my dad and skylar gave my mom a blessing, then they left. I was kind of scared, and I didn't really know what to do because we never have had a Christmas where mom and dad weren't there.
Mom and Dad were gone for 6 1/2 hours on Christmas Eve. Mom had to get lots of tests done and given lots and lots of blood. I was scared we would have a Christmas without mom and dad. It came around to be dinner time.. and mom's food hadn't been cooked. Alicia is 8 1/2 months pregnant and obviously wasn't up to cooking a huge meal that mom had planned for us. So, for the first time in my entire life we had Taco Bell for Christmas Eve dinner. It was the only place open besides McDonald's.
Mom and Dad got home around 10:00. By that time, Ethan, Emma, Dylan & Jake were asleep and we had played so many games and watched so many movies I was about to pass out. But mom was feeling a little better and we sat up talking and laughing and we got to enjoy Christmas Eve with mom.
Then I went to sleep, and Santa came (:
I got zebra bedding, a new straightner, tons of clothes and shoes, a new coat, rue 21 gift card, lots of treats and etc. It was a good Christmas and I loved it!
Even though tradition changed, and things got a little shaky and scary, our family pulled through it and none of us forgot about our Savior for one second. It didn't feel like Christmas to me a lot this year, but the true meaning of Christmas was still there and the hope and love was shown in my family this year.
I love my family, and I love my parents. They are the best examples to me and I want my mom to know that I missed her, and that I love her. Because it just wasn't the same without her there. And I'm SO thankful she got to come home to us for Christmas. I think that was the best gift of all. The gift of having a mom as great and special as mine.
I hope everyone had a GREAT Christmas this year & that no one forgot its true meaning. Because we should never forget that this time of the year is the time where we can take a step back, and realize when we're being greedy or selfish. It is the time where we can look at ourselves and see the potential we have in helping others. Because there are so many of us out there that can make a difference to someone else. There are so many people out there that have nothing, and anyone can make their lives just a little bit better.. even just by smiling at them or being their friend. I love giving service to others knowing that I can make their life just a little bit better by giving something to them that I know they need more than I do. My Grandpa has taught me that my entire life, and I learn it from his selflessness and love for others. I'm proud to have the family that I do. & I'm grateful to be able to spend time with them during this season.
Well, now I'm just rambling on, so I'd better go! Merry Christmas everyone! & Happy New Year!!
love, erin
Our usual tradition is that on Christmas Eve, we stay home all day and play games as a family, watch movies.. and all that jazz. Then we get to open a big family present which always consists of pajamas with the occasional slipper. After that we have a candlelight dinner and my mom cooks amazing-ness. Then we stay up all night playing more games and watching more and more movies. I love Christmas time with my family.
But this year.. it was different. Christmas Eve started out the way it normally does. We played games, and watched movies.. But then my mom wasn't feeling too well and decided she felt sick. Well, what was sick turned into even worse sick, and my dad had to run my mom to the emergency room around 3:30 pm leaving me, alicia, sky, jake, dylan, and the twins at home. We weren't sure what was going on, but before they left my dad and skylar gave my mom a blessing, then they left. I was kind of scared, and I didn't really know what to do because we never have had a Christmas where mom and dad weren't there.
Mom and Dad were gone for 6 1/2 hours on Christmas Eve. Mom had to get lots of tests done and given lots and lots of blood. I was scared we would have a Christmas without mom and dad. It came around to be dinner time.. and mom's food hadn't been cooked. Alicia is 8 1/2 months pregnant and obviously wasn't up to cooking a huge meal that mom had planned for us. So, for the first time in my entire life we had Taco Bell for Christmas Eve dinner. It was the only place open besides McDonald's.
Mom and Dad got home around 10:00. By that time, Ethan, Emma, Dylan & Jake were asleep and we had played so many games and watched so many movies I was about to pass out. But mom was feeling a little better and we sat up talking and laughing and we got to enjoy Christmas Eve with mom.
Then I went to sleep, and Santa came (:
I got zebra bedding, a new straightner, tons of clothes and shoes, a new coat, rue 21 gift card, lots of treats and etc. It was a good Christmas and I loved it!
Even though tradition changed, and things got a little shaky and scary, our family pulled through it and none of us forgot about our Savior for one second. It didn't feel like Christmas to me a lot this year, but the true meaning of Christmas was still there and the hope and love was shown in my family this year.
I love my family, and I love my parents. They are the best examples to me and I want my mom to know that I missed her, and that I love her. Because it just wasn't the same without her there. And I'm SO thankful she got to come home to us for Christmas. I think that was the best gift of all. The gift of having a mom as great and special as mine.
I hope everyone had a GREAT Christmas this year & that no one forgot its true meaning. Because we should never forget that this time of the year is the time where we can take a step back, and realize when we're being greedy or selfish. It is the time where we can look at ourselves and see the potential we have in helping others. Because there are so many of us out there that can make a difference to someone else. There are so many people out there that have nothing, and anyone can make their lives just a little bit better.. even just by smiling at them or being their friend. I love giving service to others knowing that I can make their life just a little bit better by giving something to them that I know they need more than I do. My Grandpa has taught me that my entire life, and I learn it from his selflessness and love for others. I'm proud to have the family that I do. & I'm grateful to be able to spend time with them during this season.
Well, now I'm just rambling on, so I'd better go! Merry Christmas everyone! & Happy New Year!!
love, erin
Sunday, November 29, 2009
My Little Ethan Bug!
i love this boy. i love him with all my heart,, & everything in me.
he makes me laugh everyday. his smiles, his hugs, & spelling my name everyday for me.
(in case i forget)
my little ethan is so strong, & even through all his epilepsy, & learning and disability problems, he teaches me every day that you should always smile. it takes the pain away (:
today i was just reminded how much i love him. i could never get mad at him.
he's too amazing. i love you ethan.
love, erin
he makes me laugh everyday. his smiles, his hugs, & spelling my name everyday for me.
(in case i forget)
my little ethan is so strong, & even through all his epilepsy, & learning and disability problems, he teaches me every day that you should always smile. it takes the pain away (:
today i was just reminded how much i love him. i could never get mad at him.
he's too amazing. i love you ethan.
love, erin
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