Tuesday, June 8, 2010


graduation lately i've been thinking a lot about my life. where i see myself in the next 5 years and where i see myself now. graduating high school has given me so many things to think about. you realize that after that huge step, its time to make grown up decisions that will effect you for the rest of your life. while the thought is frightening, i find it overwhelming and relieving. i've been waiting for the day where i could be independent and be on my own for as long as i can remember. now, it is all a fantasy. because in the real world: LIFE IS HARD. trying to live on change from your wallet can be stressful. and lately i've been thinking back on the things in my life that i need to focus more on and the things i treasure more than the money i work so hard to earn.

i don't think i'll ever be so appreciative of my family. my mom and dad have given so much to me, and it hurts me to know how much of that i took for granted during my teenage years. i don't think i'd be able to function if i didn't have the family that i have. my parents influence so many of my decisions and their strong words of encouragement push me day to day and i have more comfort of what is to come in the future because of my parents love and support.

career the last two months of high school i realized how much i needed to make a decision on my career and what i wanted to do in college and for the rest of my life. i was inconsistent and indecisive and couldn't make up my mind. i was going through dance major to dance education to early childhood education and being a teacher. after so much thought and consideration i have finally decided that i am going into early childhood education and going to UVU to get my one year certificate so that i can be a preschool teacher. i am stoked about my decision and can't wait to start school and go forward with my future in teaching.

love there are a lot of things i could say about the word LOVE it means all kinds of things. but i've been thinking a lot about what it really means. i won't deny that i'm excited to someday get married to the man of my dreams. i know there is a difference between being excited and being ready. my sister got married when she was 18 and so did my mom and my grandma. i always knew that it was impossible for me to be married so young. i've always said that i am too "immature". now i've realized something. its not that i'm immature, i'm just not yet ready. which is fine. marriage is a huge step in life and i'm only 18! i have so much time to live! but i am excited for that part of my life and i know that it will be good for me.

as for now...

right now i'm working at a small snow shack on main street. while working there, i'm also looking for a second job so i can make money to go to school. so for now, i'm going to enjoy a relaxed and carefree summer of work :) and i'm going to make the most of what i have. i'm excited for what is ahead and i'm ready to put all the bad behind me. i feel like starting out fresh and i'm ready for college life and move out into my own apartment.

"Reflect upon your present blessings - of which every man has many - no on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some."
:Charles Dickens:

love, erin